Feeling being

“He was almost completely feeling being one being living. He was almost completely clearly feeling being one being living. He was almost completely feeling being one being living. He was almost completely clearly feeling being one being living. He was almost completely clearly feeling in being one being living. He was one almost completely clearly feeling about needing being one being living, about knowing being one being living, about being certain of being one being living, about not being certain of being one being living. He was almost completely clearly feeling something, he was almost completely clearly feeling everything of any such…

I would like to be sometime some in love with every one.

“I would like to be sometime some in love with every one. I will not be sometime some in love with every one. I would like certainly to be sometime in love some with every one, to have everyone one sometime in love with me and then I would be certain what way each one had loving being being in them. I really would like then some to have each one, every one, any one having loving being to my feeling and then I could have it in me to be certain what way any one, in which way each…

My first marathon

Well, this has absolutely nothing to do with anything else on this blog, or with what I intend for there to be on this blog, BUT: I don’t want to keep this file on my impoverished hard drive, SO. Here’s me, crossing the finish line in my first marathon, on my 22nd birthday, in the fall of my senior year at Dartmouth, October 4th, 2009. For the self-hatred archives. http://www.youtube.com/get_player

My first marathon

Well, this has absolutely nothing to do with anything else on this blog, or with what I intend for there to be on this blog, BUT: I don’t want to keep this file on my impoverished hard drive, SO. Here’s me, crossing the finish line in my first marathon, on my 22nd birthday, in the fall of my senior year at Dartmouth, October 4th, 2009. For the self-hatred archives. //www.youtube.com/get_player

I’m so vain I think Moby Dick is about me

It’s an all-nighter; I’m writing a paper on Moby Dick side-by-side with the boy I’ve been kissing… Closest to romantic one comes in college, I imagine. Anyway, this passage is TDF: “…the tormented spirit that glared out of bodily eyes, when what seemed Ahab rushed from his room, was for the time but a vacated thing, a formless, somnambulistic being, a ray of living light, to be sure, but without an object to color, and therefore a blankness in itself. God help thee, old man, thy thoughts have created a creature in thee’ and he whose intense thinking thus makes…

I’m so vain I think Moby Dick is about me

It’s an all-nighter; I’m writing a paper on Moby Dick side-by-side with the boy I’ve been kissing… Closest to romantic one comes in college, I imagine. Anyway, this passage is TDF: “…the tormented spirit that glared out of bodily eyes, when what seemed Ahab rushed from his room, was for the time but a vacated thing, a formless, somnambulistic being, a ray of living light, to be sure, but without an object to color, and therefore a blankness in itself. God help thee, old man, thy thoughts have created a creature in thee’ and he whose intense thinking thus makes…

Saturday of Winter Carnival, sigh

I’m a little bit drunk, in a conference room in Fairchild, with dozens and dozens of my poems laid out on the table, drawing diagrams and writing epigrams on a whiteboard, moving in and out of landscapes, frames of mind. Hilary is writing a chapter for her art history thesis on early modern portraiture, Andrew is working on his earth sciences thesis about core samples and climate change… I am working on my poems. Hah. Anyway, just need to record this moment in time when this I cannot think of another poem I have ever loved more than “To the…

Saturday of Winter Carnival, sigh

I’m a little bit drunk, in a conference room in Fairchild, with dozens and dozens of my poems laid out on the table, drawing diagrams and writing epigrams on a whiteboard, moving in and out of landscapes, frames of mind. Hilary is writing a chapter for her art history thesis on early modern portraiture, Andrew is working on his earth sciences thesis about core samples and climate change… I am working on my poems. Hah. Anyway, just need to record this moment in time when this I cannot think of another poem I have ever loved more than “To the…

The Marriage (between China and the US)

Andrew wants to kiss a Sarah, because it’s a lovely name without any immediate negative connotations. Meanwhile, in China, they are naming their daughter things likes, @, and &, because these neo-symbols don’t correspond to 1.9 million other @s, like there would be if you named her the symbol for Chang or whatever — There was a great article in National Geo about it, which I can’t find right now, but yeah. Derrida: “Such is the question: the marriage between speech and Being in the unique word, in the finally proper name. Such is the question that enters into the…

The Marriage (between China and the US)

Andrew wants to kiss a Sarah, because it’s a lovely name without any immediate negative connotations. Meanwhile, in China, they are naming their daughter things likes, @, and &, because these neo-symbols don’t correspond to 1.9 million other @s, like there would be if you named her the symbol for Kim or whichever common name — There was a great article in National Geo about it, which I can’t find right now, but yeah. Derrida: “Such is the question: the marriage between speech and Being in the unique word, in the finally proper name. Such is the question that enters…